No one knows
Somehow, this is the best place to confess my true feelings. People might read and ask but I dont care. I just can’t say it out so I got no choice but to type it all here. I felt that I’m big enough to control myself. Hello! I’m 18 this year ok??? I know how to takecare of myself. Cant I gohome late or early in the morning? Am I in the wrong? I did not do anything bad out there. Just plainly drinking and talking to my friends. Why are you always spoiling my mood by calling me and asking me to go home? Why are you always ignoring me after everything? Don’t you think you’re selfish?
Sister always gets what she wants but not me. Did you ever spare a thought for me? If sister wants to go out late, you’ll just tell her to be home early. If she wants to go overseas, you will only ask her to takecare and call back. If she wants to buy smth, you will buy it for her soonnnn.
What about me? I always gets the worst treatment. If I say I wna go out till late, you’ll scold me like nobody’s business. Yes, sometimes you might allow but its only until 12am? If I say I wna go overseas, you’ll tell me I cant go whatever shit stuffs. If I wna buy smth, you’ll just tell me that you have no money and I’m always spending my money fast.
What did I do wrong to deserve this treatment? Sometimes I really think that I don’t belong to this family. Dad loves brother. Mum loves sister. Me? I’m always the one left out. Everyone hates me. Yes, I think I’m just a kid that you picked up from the dustbin.
I might be rebellious during the Secondary School days, but that are all the past. Shouldn’t we let the past be the past and look forward to the future? Why do you always like to rack up all the past that I’ve done? I don’t believe my siblings are the angels. *tsk* I’m seriously starting to hate it here. I really love you, even bf cant replace you in my heart but… what’s that you’re giving me? Sigh. Can you please give me some freedom? I really need them . I don’t wna be like a small dog staying at home looking after the house.
I love you, mom!
I LOVE YOU
Moodless this few days. I dont know why. No mood for everything, anything. Just feel like sleeping and sleeping. I miss Baby alot. But I’m sad that I got no time to meet him due to work and school. Maybe because I nvr meet him for too many days thats why I’m moody? Haha. Tsk tsk tsk. I love my friends, I love SWL! 
Protected: Frustrated
FML
Ytd was the worst day ever. Work was not good at all. & I meant it. I hate this feeling, seriously! Things shouldn’t turn out like this isin’t it? First it was my 2 close colleagues not talking to each other. Then it was the management who give us attitude problem. I don’t blame her though. I understand how she feel. I’m just unhappy that she threw her temper at us when we are not any happy either. Please tell me wha to do? Should I job hop again? I dont think its a good idea. But if anyone got a job relax and high pay pleaseeeee intro to me.
NEW YEAR
Though its late but a Happy New Year to everyone! 
2009 was quite a boring year for me. Not much things happen. Out of O’level then into RP. Time really pass by fast. Just a blink and a year had pass. I know new friends, of course not forgetting the old ones. We meet, we part. We quarrel and patch up.
A brief brief summary of 2009.
Bf- Well. We seldom quarrel this year, at least not as bad as 2008. We give and take and our r/s grows stronger. Coming 4th year, and we’ll still be as lovely as ever.
Old& Best ever Friends – We met up lesser nowadays due to our busy schedules. Though we have some quarrels between issues, we are still as close as ever. Ain’t we? They will always be loveliest friends ever. Love them as much.
New Friends – Coming to RP was not as bad as I thought of. Things ain’t that bad here. Know this group of friends is my best gift this year. Though we haven’t know each other for a long time but we are still close friends ya? Having quarrels with some and closing up with others. I love them too.
Had my new hair cut for the new year.
Work – Work had been fine and as normal as ever. Fun working with good good colleagues. Hope to have a better year ahead. xoxo
YO!
Hi hi hi. Finally get to blog. Home broadband down therefore… not able to use com. 
Went to Pan pacific hotel for ‘xmas party’ with loves. It was a pity J did not manage to come. We all had fun didnt we? Every game was fun. Even swimming. Tried steambath. Shiok! Sadly, no Jacuzzi there…. Hope to have more gathering like this.
GTFF :D
Some words that are said out cant be taken back. Its not whether you like it or not, but thats the fact. Though I feel a little sorry, but I don’t regret. Friends are suppose to be honest with each other isn’t it? I know its wrong to pressure someone. But! If we both won’t be able to say out nice and clear if we do it alone. I think there’s a crack in between us now. Life is just full of unfairness. But if we don’t say it to you now, others will do that too someday. Just hope for the best in your life. Give and Take. Forgive and Forget.
